Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Season, Reason or a Lifetime?
I'm feeling contemplative right now. There have been a few new developments in my life recently and it helps to reflect on how I got where I am today. There's a saying how people come into your life for a season, reason or a lifetime and each one plays an intrical part in who you are or will become. I'm organizing my seasoners, my reasoners (I know- I'm making these up) and my lifetimers. I pray that they all go into their categories willingly. You know sometimes a seasoner may think they are a lifetimer or a reasoner may think they are a seasoner. I've learned so much over the past year, that it is easy for me to distinguish between the three. Just a side note - A lifetimer is up for a super challenge - I've heard it ain't easy loving me.
I'm not old perse' but I've been around for a minute and experienced a lot in my thirty some odd years. In recent years I've tried to follow the rules of my first book, "Second Time Shame on Me" (plug ) and learn from the mistakes that I've made. In re-evaluating what happened, why it happened and what part did my actions play in it all, I find what I could have done differently. I'm not perfect by any means. Yes, I know its hard to believe that I have faults (smile) but I do. One of them being loving hard. I have an addictive personality so when I like something, I'm on it like white on rice. I want it all day, everyday and sometimes too much of a good thing can be just that..too much.
So I'm learning to pace my "addictions." Let go and let God is what someone suggest on their page. (wink- insert inside joke) The most unlikely person gave me the answer that I was looking for. Sometimes God shows us things and we have to let his will be done, whether it makes us happy or not. My knees are ashy right about now because I really had to pray on this one and I have faith that He will bring my prayers to fruition. I pray it's what I want and if it's supposed to be it will be.
I remember when I was younger I prayed for money for candy or for my progress report to get lost in the mail. Prayers get real deep when you get older don't they? Mortgages and car payments are pretty popular, new jobs or a lucky lottery number come to mind, and strength and healing always are in the top three.
I'm gonna follow that persons advice. I'm going to put all these matters in the Lords hands and I know where he takes me is where I'm supposed to be. I practice the power of positive thinking so every night I chant "It will all work out. It will all work out." And that coupled with prayer, I'm sure it will. Tears have adorned my face for too many days. It's time to turn it over. Confusion has now set in and it can only get uglier from here before it gets better. I pray once the smoke clears I am left standing as the victor. I'm going to my prayer closet and I ask that you all include me in your prayers amongst the prayers for the Benz's and the pay raises.
If loving you is wrong, I don't wanna be right but I'll be damn if I'm gonna be a dummy - unknown "ghetto" author (hmmmmm???)
I'm not old perse' but I've been around for a minute and experienced a lot in my thirty some odd years. In recent years I've tried to follow the rules of my first book, "Second Time Shame on Me" (plug ) and learn from the mistakes that I've made. In re-evaluating what happened, why it happened and what part did my actions play in it all, I find what I could have done differently. I'm not perfect by any means. Yes, I know its hard to believe that I have faults (smile) but I do. One of them being loving hard. I have an addictive personality so when I like something, I'm on it like white on rice. I want it all day, everyday and sometimes too much of a good thing can be just that..too much.
So I'm learning to pace my "addictions." Let go and let God is what someone suggest on their page. (wink- insert inside joke) The most unlikely person gave me the answer that I was looking for. Sometimes God shows us things and we have to let his will be done, whether it makes us happy or not. My knees are ashy right about now because I really had to pray on this one and I have faith that He will bring my prayers to fruition. I pray it's what I want and if it's supposed to be it will be.
I remember when I was younger I prayed for money for candy or for my progress report to get lost in the mail. Prayers get real deep when you get older don't they? Mortgages and car payments are pretty popular, new jobs or a lucky lottery number come to mind, and strength and healing always are in the top three.
I'm gonna follow that persons advice. I'm going to put all these matters in the Lords hands and I know where he takes me is where I'm supposed to be. I practice the power of positive thinking so every night I chant "It will all work out. It will all work out." And that coupled with prayer, I'm sure it will. Tears have adorned my face for too many days. It's time to turn it over. Confusion has now set in and it can only get uglier from here before it gets better. I pray once the smoke clears I am left standing as the victor. I'm going to my prayer closet and I ask that you all include me in your prayers amongst the prayers for the Benz's and the pay raises.
If loving you is wrong, I don't wanna be right but I'll be damn if I'm gonna be a dummy - unknown "ghetto" author (hmmmmm???)
